I was ready to become a Coach. Just finish the course, get the accredited Diploma, and off you go setting up your own practice. Simple.
Two months later.
I will never be good enough to do this. I will probably not even get the Diploma. Why am I doing this?
I am critical of everything I have done with my life. I question my beliefs and my thinking patterns. I am restless and unsure about the future.
This was no longer just a course or a career path, this was my first real foray into personal development. And there were so many layers from past experiences clouding me, that I could not hear or find the answers to the 100’s of questions I asked myself.
I was afraid, anxious, worried, and felt down. All the while still working in a full-time job as a retail manager of a store that was open 364 days a year.
I handed in my notice to fully concentrate on becoming a Coach. I promised them to stay until after Christmas.
A new anxiety rose its loud, obnoxious head. I will have no income from January. The course was finishing end of May. What will I do?
The Irish Lifecoach Institute (ILI) is a top-of-the-range training provider. They knew this was not just happening to me. Lots of students in our course and the years previous had gone through this. They also know, as every properly trained coach does, that we all have the answers to any of our questions, fears, and anxieties within us. With that in mind, they provide platforms within the course to create a space for exploring this.
We were introduced to PCGs (Peer Coaching Groups), where as students we met in groups outside the course, as well as in the course facilitated by a tutor. Then we started coaching each other to get used to the techniques and also to assist the development of one another.
We journaled. We read books from a list on the curriculum that allowed us to learn and explore at the same time. We grew together. I felt privileged to be part of the ILI.
Some of the anxieties and fears dissipated. Some remained. Yet I felt I was discovering a new lifestyle. One that would not lead me to burnout and severe stress attacks like my previous jobs had.
Filled with renewed hope and energy, I relaunched myself into the course, trying to make the best of it one day at a time.
(To Be Continued)